祂在對我説話

自從當我發現，一個我認定是朋友的人，原來這麽多年來一直在我背後說我的壞話，我便一直耿耿於懷。一來怪自己笨（唉），怎麽會這些年來，給人良心當狗肺，自己還傻吓傻吓；二來覺得很委屈，因她說我的壞話，都是誇張失實的（也就是壞話的定義吧）。

終於，昨天晚上，我心血來潮，決定今天在這裡發洩一下，好讓大家見識一下大口八婆的犀利。(我呀，好記仇的，你們不要得罪我呀，記住你一世呀。）

然後，今天早上，坐車途中，聼着download在IPod的sermon，聽到這番話--

"If we can take the onslaught of attack, and still have a committment to minister to people, it shows that we are freed from those opinions. People will talk trash about you. People will misunderstand your motives. People will not respect you as they should. People will always disappoint you, christians and non-christians alike. And then you have to make a choice. What do you do with that disappointment?...We see David who was so rooted in his faith, that regardless of the onslaught he felt...he had a committment to God, that oversaw all of that. He had a committment to God that still called him to be ministry-minded, to minister to those that on a horizontal plane did not deserve his ministry, to encourage those who did not encourage him, to love those who were unloveable. That is only possible with a heart that is focused on God... It's 'loving inspite of' that brings such glory to God."

因此，我原本想寫的，寫不了。你原本要看的，看不見。