不相愛的好處。

於9426.2公里外，你在電話的那一頭說：“我想我現在明白你當時在倫敦生活時那種孤單的感覺。” 之後的那一句，即使你沒有說出來，我都聽懂。

親愛的，其實你並不如你想像中的那麼瞭解我。我在外頭的那些時間，曾是很多東西，但孤單，從來不是。

能與分手了的男人做回朋友，只因不用再無時無刻披起肩甲去捍衛自己的立場想法價值觀。沒有無窮的寄望，沒有無聊的對峙，尋回喘氣的空間，演化成一段有適當距離，恰當關心，和沒有壓力的友誼。剛剛好。

於是，我在電話的這邊說: “嗯，是嗎。”

I am singing this song in my head all day long at work. (Don't worry I can multi-task.)

As we gather my Your Spirit work within us
As we gather may we glorify Your Name
Knowing well that as our hearts begin to worship
We’ll be blessed because we came
We’ll be blessed because we came

The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases
His mercies never come to an end
They are new every morning, new every morning
Great is Thy faithfulness oh Lord
Great is Thy faithfulness

And then I found this on Youtube.

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Random thoughts.

I am so glad I went to see this with Mum on Monday. She enjoyed it tremendously too.

I love mother-daughter bonding time.

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Quite a few friends (or their parents or spouses) are encountering various health issues, some more serious than others. While I continue to be vigilant in my prayer for them, it also put everything in perspective. Not that many years ago, I still thought that my parents were invincible and they and I would live forever (or at least for the next 60 years or so).

hmmm.

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Am having dinner with Dad tonight. Mum has plans so he is feeling a bit lonely at home.

I love father-daughter bonding time.

Randy Pausch.

If you haven't heard about Randy Pausch or watched any of his on-line lectures (I am watching this), I strongly recommend that you do it now.

He is a truly inspiring person, and extremely funny too.

I am generally a happy bunny and glass-is-always-half-full type of person, but I would kill to be half as optimistic as Randy is. He is amazing.

Some quotes:

"Experience is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted."

"..when you are pissed off at somebody... you just haven't given them enough time. Just give them a little more time and they will almost always impress you."

"The brick walls are there for a reason. The brick walls are not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something... the brick walls are there to stop the people who don’t want it badly enough. They are there to stop the other people."

After the Storm

After the storm she laid her naked body
down in wet grass, closed her eyes,
the heaviness gone from the air,

from her life. The breath of the earth
warmed her skin, filled her lungs.
One by one the animals reappeared

from the woods, from their hiding places
deep in the woods, to nervously nuzzle
the strange thing, lick a shoulder or thigh.

But still she lay, unmoving and quiet.
And she lay and and she lay for a hundred years,
while the grass grew over her limbs, breasts

and hair, took her body into the earth,
into the deep, sweet earth of the world.

--- by Jonathan Attrill

Revelation.

I am still bittered, after all these years.

I thought I have forgotten, I thought I have forgiven, but reality always bites.

Sigh.

給我的靚仔朋友。係呀，係你呀。

放心，我不會那麽埋没人性地把我們談論的話題放到這裏来，雖然我好想。

但有些事，真的想再清楚說明一下。你嫌我長氣都係咁話。

即是呢…我哋呢…其實年紀唔細架啦，新陳代謝又開始慢，如果學人玩火，燒到自己的話，有排都好唔番呀（重可能毀容！）。

共勉之。